We say that it's hard to forgive. I would say that genuine forgiveness is not possible at the beginning of your healing journey. But when you are ready, it will come effortlessly to you and set you free.

How could I forgive her after all she’d done?
Hidden deep beneath anxiety and depression, and fake faces of “happy” me, anger exploded to the surface by the sound of the word “forgiveness”. Erupting like a volcano in the middle of the night, extirpating kindness with a burning rage.
Mama and I were like two planets melted into one another, co-dependent and unable to separate.
Though deep inside I wanted to become free. When I reached out for help, things slowly began to alter.
And Mama stayed in her orbit chastising me for being disloyal.
She was who she was, and she was never keen on change [...]

Hate and love. Deepest secrets of the Universe and a human brain. Stories we make about ourselves, and stories we tell.
Nothing seems to be permanent. Everything’s changing like waters in Flensburg fjord–from light to darkness through the shades of grey, and back again.
Life is a fairy tale when you look at transformations happening everywhere, every day.
Angels become demons. Demons turn into angels [...]