Traumatic experiences are often lost in time and concealed by shame, secrecy, and social taboo. – Vincent J. Felitti, MD
Exhausted, you fall in bed.
You stretch your aching body under the sheets and close your eyes. Waiting for relief…
But your mind won’t hush.
Thoughts, replays of conversations—real and imagined—start running through your head like a circus carousel.
A never-ending dialog with yourself. And your mom. [Read more…]
If someone asked you about your childhood, what would you say?
“I don’t want to talk about it,” or “There’s not much to say,” or “Nothing was wrong with my childhood”?
Perhaps you wouldn’t remember much even if you tried… except your mother’s icy face, your dad’s angry voice, or your uncle’s drunken laughter…
And your fear of being in this unsafe and dangerous world.
Scared and sad, you had no one to talk to. No one who would listen and understand. [Read more…]
Do you want to do everything just perfect?
Good enough is a foreign concept. One of the best wouldn’t do.
You aim at THE BEST.
You push yourself far and beyond to keep the house pristine, everyone satisfied and job done ahead of the deadline.
Like a bulldozer, you propel forward at the highest possible speed sweeping away the mess and pulling others under the blade. Persistent and unstoppable.
Until you run out of gas.
Plummeting into the inertia of complete overwhelm.
Feeling frustrated, guilty and ashamed. [Read more…]
Do you feel trapped?
Like sitting at the bottom of a deep well. No light. No life. No hope.
*Sigh*
He pushes your buttons with remarkable precision – he knows exactly where they are.
“You’re just like your mother!”, he barks.
“Tired? You?!!”, he rolls his eyes with contempt, “You make me laugh.”
“So you’re smart, ha?”, his face dangerously close to yours.
Then he plays the nice guy, to lull your vigilance and catch you off guard. With criticism, lies, and intimidation.
Just to suddenly strike you with his,“Now, what’s wrong?”
You try to comprehend your partner’s behaviour. Blaming yourself for the “wrong” questions and being “stupid”.
Sinking deeper and deeper into despair. [Read more…]
