Toxic Mother-Daughter Relationships
"Childhood is the happiest time in human life," or so they say.
What you've never understood is how feeling hurt and lonely, year after year, could possibly be the best time of your life. Neither could I…

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"Childhood is the happiest time in human life," or so they say.
What you've never understood is how feeling hurt and lonely, year after year, could possibly be the best time of your life. Neither could I…
By Irina 4 Comments
“Sure, Mom… me too. See you soon.”
Sigh…
You hang up the phone and a tsunami of anxiety sweeps over you.
You look around, and the cosy kitchen feels suddenly distant and unreal, as if you’re looking through a dirty glass. So does your hand, still clutching the phone – is it even your hand?
Have you ever had to do something so unpleasant that the thought alone would send your anxiety through the roof?
The very idea of doing it has the power to set your skin on fire, deprive you of sleep, and highjack your thoughts. Your heart jumps frantically as if it wants to break out of your body and hide somewhere safe. [Read more…]
Hate and love. Deepest secrets of the Universe and a human brain. Stories we make about ourselves, and stories we tell.
Nothing seems to be permanent. Everything’s changing like waters in Flensburg fjord–from light to darkness through the shades of grey, and back again. [Read more…]
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Traumatic experiences are often lost in time and concealed by shame, secrecy, and social taboo. – Vincent J. Felitti, MD
Exhausted, you fall in bed.
You stretch your aching body under the sheets and close your eyes. Waiting for relief…
But your mind won’t hush.
Thoughts, replays of conversations—real and imagined—start running through your head like a circus carousel.
A never-ending dialog with yourself. And your mom. [Read more…]
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Understanding your symptoms
Are you in a state of constant alert, forever searching your surroundings for signs of potential danger?
Like something bad is going to happen… again?
Sigh…
Your mind flips endlessly through the painful memories of your childhood, flashing frightening images before your inner eye.
At night, it plays horror movies for you till you wake up perspiring and terrified, desperately looking for something familiar to tell you you’re safe.
You can’t relax and everything feels unreal.
Are you ill? [Read more…]